moth

i was talking to a moth
the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows
pull this stunt i asked him
because it is the conventional
thing for moths or why
if that had been an uncovered
candle instead of an electric
light bulb you would
now be a small unsightly cinder
have you no sense

plenty of it he answered
but at times we get tired
of using it
we get bored with the routine
and crave beauty
and excitement
fire is beautiful
and we know that if we get
too close it will kill us
but what does that matter
it is better to be happy
for a moment
and be burned up with beauty
than to live a long time
and be bored all the while
so we wad all our life up
into one little roll
and then we shoot the roll
that is what life is for
it is better to be a part of beauty
for one instant and then cease to
exist than to exist forever
and never be a part of beauty
our attitude toward life
is come easy go easy
we are like human beings
used to be before they became
too civilized to enjoy themselves

and before i could argue him
out of his philosophy
he went and immolated himself
on a patent cigar lighter
i do not agree with him
myself i would rather have
half the happiness and twice
the longevity

but at the same time i wish
there was something i wanted
as badly as he wanted to fry himself

someone killed herself after typing this entry. i.... don't know what to say.

P B

If you watch prison break, check out this website

Attn: Fish

C-Finch69

04/07

Find this thread. You might find it a tad familiar if you watch the show with much fervour.

If you listen closely to Simple Plan's Crazy, the lyrics though laced with punk and pop rock, it really does make a whole lot of common sense though. Is everyone going crazy?

True enough, it had to rain when i had the intention of swimming. I think I can be some cloud seeder or smth.

Ok 2 hours on tutorial. If don't know to do, screw it.

Complain #1

Die la. I stare are Coding and Math Anal 2 for 3 hrs today. I still don't understand 1/2 the fug on what's going on in the notes. But at least I know how to integrate kokanathan functions like exp(t²), which u can't any answer by integrating by parts. *temporal enlightenment*

Heard that Canada allowance for one mth is CAD1150. Not that bad. Hopefully enough to get by. Then my father can save the $$$ in order to repair the Camry in view of an impending car accident which I think it's only a matter of time b4 I myself into.

Today while driving to Klassic, got this female who's driving a humongous Lexus just squeeze into the merging lane when I was at her side. Fortunately I stopped in time. Near Miss #1203218538247218432432.

Ok ok la. I go do more UBC sai gang. NUS increase parking charge until $1.2 per hour. And very soon, PGP's not going to be free anymore. ZZz

H20 - UV + CL2C00H = HanseL

Whenever I step into the swimming pool, the sun disappears, hides behind the clouds, shuns away from my omnipotent presence, hides behind Uranus, vanishes through a black hole, gets eaten by Pluto, becomes a regular singular point in the complex plane of clouds, takes leave to play mahjong with Moon, Mars and Venus.

So ladies, if you want to maintain your Snow White complexion, go ahead! Construct a swimming pool at my void deck.

Is it really that hard to get a tan.?~?!?~! Must I take cos to divide sin?

Shit. Did i just say that. Anyway, err.. nothing to update. My Hokkien Mee craving is coming back again. Zzzz.

Mahoo Yahjong

There are hunny fouse rules for yahjong.
Like if you kah other people's flower, you pay them money.
Zhi moh, add $$$
Throw 2 dice. Then use the 2 dice and throw again.

Yahjong? Play with people your own age. The elders all got some kind of spider sense. Their -movespeed forever 522 also. -_-

Driving is unhealthy

Driving on the roads 2 years ago and driving now is quite a different thing altogether. People are more affluent. More people learn driving. More people buy cars. More cars on the road. Cars become more. Cars get bigger. Cars get faster. And sncie the slpame sapce gtes lrgaer, natrullay the lmuber of idoits incraese on the raods. (I'm talking in Prince English anyway. Not Queen's)

There are a lot of idiots on the road these days.
1) I hate to say this. But I wonder what some females are doing on the roads sometimes. (I think Prof Prime's other half might kill me hehehe)
2) People who don't know that they have to give way at roundabouts.
3) People who like to veer/swerve into your lane, while they talk on their handphones.
4) People who tailgate you and high beam you.
5) People who tailgate you and overtake you, only for you to overtake them later on the expressway at 90km/h
6) Motorcycles who like to ride on the extreme right side of the road at 0.000001 metres/hour
7) People who think they zhng their car, then can go very fast, only to see them face to face again at the next traffic light.
8) Malaysians. Period. (I think their Highway Code Book only 1 page. Their one page only got these words, "Refer to Singapore's Highway Code Book")
9) People who don't turn on their headlights at night.
10) People who think their car very small, like to position their cars too out from the stop line, especially at cross junctions.

I just think the transport problem is going to be exacerbated during our generation. Demand for road space exceeds the supply provided by the expressways. CTE keeps jamming for no apparent reason. Maybe I should start investing in some spider serum so I can swing from building from building.

I was watching the trailer for Spiderman 3 for the don't know how many time at Cathay. Spiderman has MJ. Mary Jane or MahJong? Haha.

Anyway, Bean's da man. I sound like him meh? -_-

Can I transfer some of my Complex marks to Coding? Fooool marks. Pui. I'm on the extreme side of the bell curve for these 2 modules. Wrong side for one of them apparently.

[itunes] : Incubus - Drive

gcd(Gordon,Hansel) = 1 <-> Gordon and Me are coprime -_-

Forgot that Ch5 was showing Phantom. Doesn't matter anyway.

Well Coding was a severe screw up. I made a careless mistake. In addition, I left 1/3 of the paper blank. Well, partly all I can say is that I was too tired to think properly. Don't know why I study so much for fuck. The test turned out to be a test in which I would know how to do the first two questions even if I didn't study at all. You know, when it comes to level 3000 and 4000 maths modules, sometimes mugging doesn't really matter anymore. You need some form of talent and creativity in which those PRCs and shens will always have an edge over you because for the very fact that you don't do Maths 24/7 unlike them who breathe, live and shit Maths. I think doing the latter is damn spastic unless you intend to be an academic. I'm more or less pretty satisfied with my maths aptitude and the balance in the kind of social life I have. Can't have the best of both worlds, can't you.

The grumbling aside. Photo spam time.

Mich and me at Olivia's concert.

Hahaha. Gordon's surprise birthday party. Gee, I'm the fairest of them all.

Gordon's prime cake.

The 3 insane maths freaks. Oh, I'm the one who's bringing down the average CAP.

Trying to look Geek.

(L-R) : Prof Lee Juncai, Dr. Hansel Lin Daoyang, Prof Prime aka. Gordon Wong Tzzzz Hong

And so Friday ended with Gordon's party, a lot of food and nonsense in my stomach, tons of laughter, conversations involving a lot of prime numbers, going to Juncai's house to take his car, yaydayada. Erm, can you believe it. The main door to JC's house is GREEN. zzzz.

Then Saturday began. A crazier day which saw me outside of house for about 16 hours. It started with Seok's birthday and I had to wear pink and white. Thankfully I wasn't wearing revealing underwear cos I realized my white berms were extremely translucent. Stim rite? Hahaha.

Birthday Girl. Are you wishing that everyone's favourite colour was pink?

Errr. Teacher poisoning detected in this picture.

My chipmunk cute rite? On hindsight, I think I look like a cock in pink and white.

The crowd at her house. A lot of people man.

Then after that, it was a rush home to send back the car to my Dad. Changed up and teleported to SMU where Zhongwen's competition was held. Citibank Consumer Case Competitition. You know ah. When I stepped into SMU, I was like...... "Wah NUS is shit man". SMU is the place to be at man. What a waste that sciences are not offered there.

That's not it. When I stepped into the Conference Hall, I thought I stepped into RJC in 2002. Clement, Wenduan, Yansheng, Bertrand, Weekiat, You An, Desmond, e.t.c. But I have to comment. This was where the elites were gathered. No question about it. It was like 50% RJC 50% others. *shrug*

Watched 300 at midnight with ZW and Champ. Sin City was better definitely. Ok enough blogging. Time to go for a fun FINALLY. And my LP tutorial 8 is still undone.

Like I care anyway.

[itunes] : Snow Patrol - Open Your Eyes

Tuition

Sec 3 Tuition at River Valley. $25 an hour. Who wants? Let me know.

Spinarooney

I seem to be a magnet for car accidents of late. If Jason wasn't fast enough, or the lady was a tad bit faster, i would have most likely fractured my shoulder, maybe lost my arm and landed up in hospital already.

Yup, the impact was so bad that the car spun 180 degrees. Escaped with a sore shoulder that doesn't seem very cooperative in turning properly.

But life goes on. I'm know I'm not a very lucky person. I don't need events such as this to verify, justify, prove, substantiate, corroborate, claim, ascertain, yadaydada this sodding fact man.

Olivia was well... not bad la. Her voice was crystal clear, but I think she's too young. She needs more experience to command the crowd so that they won't have to resort to such lengthy time fillers. Was expecting her to sing more though.

[itunes]: Blue October - Hate Me

PahJiao in PyJamas

Wah. Uncle To is some cunning shit. Change Cauchy-Gorsat to Fundamental Theorem of Crapculus. Cunning. Cunning. Do not underestimate the guy who wears peach-coloured shirts.

In any case, hope can full marks la. I quite long never full mark any test lo... -_-

I'm getting tuition offers at Hillview and Pasir Ris. This is ridiculous. I'm already teaching 2 at these places and I get two more from this areas. Zzzzz. But the moms of these 2 are damn demanding. And they are my mom's friends. so... err.. period.

Hmm the simplex method is an algorithm that runs in polynomial time.
And I also need to learn how the birds fly in the air for my stupid physics module.
I really suck like shit in physics man.

Living example of someone who can do maths pretty well, but is as clueless as the stupid apple that dropped on Newton's head.

[itunes] : Puddle of Mudd - Control

Lucky in Unlucky Situations

Quite a lot of shit happened in 2 hours.

1) On the way to Chomp Chomp, nearly met into an accident. Got this asshole from the petrol station, I don't know whether his fugging brake spoil or what, I was on the main road and he wanted to turn out into the main road from the exit path of the petrol station. Nearly hit the left side of my car. Still show me attitude. Then I pulled over, expecting him to do the same, but he just drove off. I was pretty surprised I didn't lose my temper.

2) Then then, in my attempt to drive over and wait for that idiot to stop, got this black car drove at the roundabout. Fortunately it was slow. Nearly rammed me from the right. Talked about getting spanked left right centre.

3) Then reach Chomp Chomp. My Hokkien Mee was the LAST plate of the night.

4) On the way back, fortunately I was distracted in the car and I didn't speed. Cos I always have the tendency to drive at 110 on CTE. Then 2 white motorbikes drove past me. And turned on their sirens to stop a pickup that was speeding.

5) Then I wanted to drop Mich at the usual place. But got there was this lorry and this car that was blocking my entry in. Fortunately, I drove back later, or not I would be stuck on the other side of the road with no possible way of squeezing the fat Camry through.

So.... when is it going to be the turn for the "Unlucky in Lucky Situations"? Hmm.

Eh shit i think i screwed up my analysis test. I saw Uncle Tang's mail. His motivations from the tutorials don't match the motivations for my answer. yawn.

[itunes] : Chris Daughtry - Crashed

Random Post Generator

Er.. Really? You think so?

Oh 5th weird thing, continuation from the post about weird things. did i spell continuation correctly? feels wrong. I hate writing things in pencil. Because i spent my sodding primary school days writing every shit workshit and test in pencil. And because of my sweaty palms, the lead has a tendency to smudge off and become invisible after that. So yeah.

[itunes] : Nickelback - Follow You Home

Burn Out

Aiyoh. Never do work today again. Sleep sleep sleep.

Thirteen senses new album out end of the month. I guess I should be buying it.

Well, hope ZW nails it at goldman sachs and HSBC. If he does, wahaha got powerful ally.

I can't bite properly. No it's not that it's pain. In fact, the pain is bearable. I was eating all sorts of junk on the second day already. The thing is, the stupid metal on the lower set of teeth is obstructing and preventing me from having a full bite. So i can't bite things like squid, kangkong, yada yada. Ok la. More healthy eating for the next 2 years. Haha.

Don't study, sure get second up. Study, might not get first.
The problem with the civil service bond is that your starting pay is determined by the kind of honours you get.
Secondly, it's restricting a lot of things that I want to do.
Grace said that she's working 12 hours everyday during her practicum, which makes me wonder, are you spending 12 hours teaching, or are u spending 3 hours teaching and the other 9 doing idiotic administrative work.
See how it goes during the 3 week attachment.
My primary school teacher told me during CNY that primary school's the worst place to teach.
1) Discipline nowdays is ridiculous. Standing at your desk for more than 5 minutes is considered corporal punishment. You are not allowed to cane, slap or pull the ears of your students. You cannot send students out of the class.
2) Parents scold teachers these days when you take them into hand, instead of supporting your cause.
3) The principals are getting younger, with a faster turnover rate, and they are desperate to mete out new initiatives to beautify their achievements.
4) Remember the admin officers that are introduced to the schools to help the teachers? Well, they help the principals instead of the teachers. And when a teacher questioned the PS of Education, he replied saying "we hand over jurisdiction of the admin officers to the principals". You know, I always think military men should just remain in the military, instead of jumping over to other departments.
5) She was complaining that teachers have to undergo some work attachment program for 2 weeks - 1 mth, i.e. work in other fields to gain insight and exposure to the private sector yadayayadyada. And in the process, the class gets relieved by some tutor who can't teach, or who doesn't bother to teach, and then the backlog of work piles up when they return.

I really need to see it myself. Because if the situation's craptacular, I better think real carefully about what's the next step 4 years later.

Or am I just thinking too much and too far ahead. Lol. Wadever. I realised that my standard of english on my blog is deproving. Words don't seem to come with seamless fluidity as compared to last time. But formulas and theorems and JAPANESE seem quick to materialize. -_-

[itunes]: Thirteen Senses - The Salt Wound Routine

Tag!

Hell week begins. And what a way to start it with a big bang. Analysis test was erm.. Thinking back, I think I wrote a lot of crap. I even ate bread while during the last part of the test.

I didn't realise someone actually tagged me to do this a long time ago. Hmm.

This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game..
Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

Here we go, 6 weird things:

1. I love drinking water. In fact, I'm a water bucket.

2. I need to crap every morning or everyday at least. If I don't, I feel quite uncomfortable.

3. I like my nails short.

4. I get side effects from drinking coffee. Shaky hands, increased concentration, incoherent garbage coming out of my mouth, nausea, thirst, e.t.c. I didn't have this last time during secondary school when I drank coffee everyday. Don't know why.

Err, I can't think of anymore weird things. Maybe those who read my blog can suggest two more?

Oh for those who were wondering what the 9 letter word is
it's STARTINGS
--> STARTING
--> STARING
--> STRING
--> STING
--> SING
--> SIN
--> IN
--> I

Wait. This looks like a triangular matrix. -_-

[itunes]: Norah Jones - What Am I To You

PDA

Well, apparently he skipped 2 grades in junior and high school. And he worked at Boston Consultancy Group before embarking on a singing career. Well, the wonders of home schooling.
Nonetheless, I think this is his best song so far.

The BDB needs a lesson on the BKB

I defeated challengers at the arcade machine 9 times straight in a row. Now. Who said a RJC don't know how to play arcade.

Don't know where ZW looking at.

Champion trying to be funny. In addition, I also don't know where Greg and Irvin looking at.

The 6 of us. Gee. Took me a week to post these pictures up. =S Happy Birthday Greg.

Your Birthdate: October 15

You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things. You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle. Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home. You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak. Your strength: Your intense optimism Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents Your power color: Jade Your power symbol: Flower Your power month: June

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

This description is bollocks.

Got a lot of things to post, but don't know why like no time to blog about it.

[itunes] : Sarah McLachlan - Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

Urghghgh

Wah quite shag. That's abt it

Why are there complex numbers in coding theory????


[itunes] : Muse - Hysteria